Thriving on giving and kindness in this generation

I'm not used to writing publicly with my name and I fully expect judgment. I just do not care anymore. If you do not like me, don't read this nor pretend to like me...... EVER. I have went through a difficult divorce in the past 2 years, lost some close friends, gained friends and somewhere along the way found the true essence of myself. at 39, I'm a work in progress. I only wish to explore what it feels like today, in this moment, to lose people that I used to share my secrets with that are gone. My personality has led me down paths where I gave everything of myself to people and they took advantage and quite frankly I believe the term would be "spit me out once they got what they wanted from me". This meaning I was of no additional use to them. I believe in today's world people can be selfish and take what they need from another person not considering how it may make someone else feel. I do realize people grow apart over time and that is the natural

I am a music lover. I express my emotions through my music. I know many people don't listen to music like I do but that's also OK. This is me. I am who I am and will never change into a person I am not. It isn't worth it. We only live once so I'd much prefer to be myself and not fake. So I enjoy many types of music and when Kacey Musgraves released her new album, "Golden Hour", I just absorbed it and swallowed it whole so to speak. Almost every song on the album I felt I could relate to it... some more than others.  I may write about a few others. I feel like in 2018, we run across many selfish people. Now, I admit I am not perfect by any means but I have learned in my 39 years I would much prefer to be giving and kind..  I'm not a "me me me" person. So I spent days listening to the album and I kept coming back to "Space Cowboy" amongst a few others. It's a selfless way of stating to someone that you are allowing them freedo